However, I still feel discontented with my life. I feel insecure about the way I looked and I realized that I do not know what my talents are. Perhaps I don't even have a talent. Soul searching is never enough for me to know my true self.
I realized that I have always been a coward, easily discouraged and I've always fear embarrassments. I fear of losing my face, my dignity and the criticisms from this cruel and biased world . But I guess sometimes, I just have to take risks, brush away my fears and most importantly, take criticisms as a form of encouragement to discover who I really am, what I'm really capable of and to be able to feel how it is like to be successful.
Until this day, I have yet feel that sense of accomplishment.